Ok so only 1 day left till the big day... tomorrow by this time I'll be done..after that the only thing will be left is to wait impatiently for the answer... My friend made me happy by sending an email today! He wished me luck and another friend who got married to a German guy this January sent me a good luck sms. Aahhh that made me feel so happy! They remembered and support me! This cheered me up so much :)
I couldn't fall asleep last night.. I was thinking about Tuesday submitting the application and couldn't hold my tears... I imagine those people there like worst of a kind monsters!!! I am scared of them... seriously I think they only wish bad for the applicants, if you make a silly mistake they won't try to understand you and neglect it but only will reject you.. My attitude towards that place is only because of my last two failures... Miika said they weren't meant to be. When I think it all makes so much sense why I got rejected.. Because that was wrong... I was blind and didn't see it... But this time it is very different, it is meant to be... I know it and I can feel it.... Miika is so nice, supporting me all the time, I am so lucky to have him! I am very emotional and when it comes to this application I start panicking like crazy.. he tries to stay calm most of the time and without his support I would have never been able to make it...
Last night I was also imagining how happy I will be when I get good news. How I will tell this to my friends who supported me and gave me strength, how I will celebrate it, what presents I will buy for Miika and his family...
I'll write tomorrow how it all went...
I couldn't fall asleep last night.. I was thinking about Tuesday submitting the application and couldn't hold my tears... I imagine those people there like worst of a kind monsters!!! I am scared of them... seriously I think they only wish bad for the applicants, if you make a silly mistake they won't try to understand you and neglect it but only will reject you.. My attitude towards that place is only because of my last two failures... Miika said they weren't meant to be. When I think it all makes so much sense why I got rejected.. Because that was wrong... I was blind and didn't see it... But this time it is very different, it is meant to be... I know it and I can feel it.... Miika is so nice, supporting me all the time, I am so lucky to have him! I am very emotional and when it comes to this application I start panicking like crazy.. he tries to stay calm most of the time and without his support I would have never been able to make it...
Last night I was also imagining how happy I will be when I get good news. How I will tell this to my friends who supported me and gave me strength, how I will celebrate it, what presents I will buy for Miika and his family...
I'll write tomorrow how it all went...
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