10 working days and nothing! today was really boring, and lonely. I watched whole first season of Weeds. I tried to watch the first episode twice and on both times switched it off in the first 15 minutes thinking it's boring. Today I finally managed to finish the first episode and watch the other 9. Guldeniz's friend put them in dropbox for me and the last 10th episode was too big and was left for next time. Now they are in Istanbul so I guess when her friend comes back to France I can kindly ask him to upload the other seasons which I'll finish in one day. In the morning I cried again to my stupid situation living  in this house with other people's rules, eating extra greasy food, gaining so much weight, looking at summer photos thinking how happy we were. There are moments when I think I can't handle it anymore. I guess no one really understands my situation. Everyone is like come on its not that bad. Believe me it is! For a person living alone for the past years it is unbearably hard. I would gladly live with my mother, but to live with azeri family is a real torture. I mean I was never close to them or anything like that, so here I fell on their head suddenly. I understand I can't change them, but still I obey their rules so they must feel a little better than me. I have my own eating, sleeping, going out habits which are completely strange for them. On top of everything this "modem must be turned off when they sleep or when they don't use it" thing gets on my nerves sooooo much. Just when I want to talk to Miika I have to turn it off. pfff like they don't get more than enough radiation sleeping with their expensive blackberries and iphones under their pillows. I almost forgot to say that my aunt said that she won't let me loose weight untill I am in this house. Ruuuuuuuuuuuuun Mehri Ruuuuuuun that's what I thought. Let's all hope that by the end of all this I'm not a 100 kg weighing azeri beauty. I seriously felt horrible when she said that...
I can't just forget about application and live "my life" happily. I get so fed up I can't explain it, so I sit and write this blog just to express my sadness and annoyance. I try to be patient, but I can't... I don't know what I can do  to make time pass quicker. Yes I'm almost done reading Museum of Innocence. Tomorrow I'll start learning French on Rosetta Stone. I promise!!!! Then I'll read Milan Kundera's Laughable Laughs or Reading Lolita in Tehran by Iranian author I forgot her name . Though the last one was kinda boring the first time I started reading it. By the way tomorrow I am going to Fidan's concert in Philarmonic Hall in Baku. Yaaayy! So much happiness!!! I won't be sitting at home tomorrow evening at least for couple of hours :)
Also today Arzu sent me a couple of fun links to keep me busy. She is so sweet! I should check them too! It is nice to know that friends think about you :))))) (At least I finished this post with a happy note, I guess everything is not 100% bad)