By now people who are reading this blog already felt that I am upset almost all the time. Today is no exception...plus it's a valentine's day which makes everything even worse. Today early in the morning my mum send me an sms wishing happy v. day to us and also hopes we will be together very soon! Then I wrote to him thinking he forgot about this day and very soon got the sweetest sms. So I am sad and happy at the same time. Happy because we love each other so much, sad that we are so far away and it is so hard almost impossible to be together. Why on earth two people loving each other so much can't be together? It is so unfair!!!!!!
Today is exactly one week after the submission. The last two days I wake up in the middle of the night and start thinking about it for 1-2 hours. Then I wake up late with a head ache. I want an answer so much! Please be it positive! We have so many plans, ideas to do together. They can't ruin it all. But they are the masters of our life at the moment.
By the way today I checked my blog's view stats. I was so surprised to see I got 89 views. I hope they don't count my own views, otherwise it's a total disappointment. I've got 1 viewer from India. Who is that I wonder? I was pleasantly surprised when Miika told me his parents read my blog. I'll try to pay more attention to grammar and my writing style. But when I think too much about that while writing I usually forget what I wanted to write and lose my inspiration. So I apologize in advance for my bad writing!
Yesterday I started downloading Barfuss (Barefoot) it's a movie by Til Schweiger. It finished downloading just now. I think I'll go to watch it with a full pack of sunflower seeds. The sunflower seeds here are different and taste better than the ones in Turkey. Actually I quit eating them last year when I started healthy cooking/eating lifestyle. But since I came to Baku it is one of my stress relief comfort food along with chocolates, and all sorts of fattening food. Miika jokes that when I come there we'll both start a strict detox diet :))) Actually I'll need it more than him because during the 6 months I spent here I ate so much fat/butter that I haven't eaten probably in the last 7 years of my life in Istanbul. I can't explain to people here that fat food doesn't mean tasty. Here it's a common belief that if you don't put lots of oil in the food you are making that means you are a bad cook. I wonder how can you change this beliefs? One more funny thing is that my aunt (my mother's cousin who is 65) told me yesterday while watching a turkish tv series that it is so bad that women are drinking wine. Before smoking was banned on tv they used to show that women are smoking. Now that they can't show it they started drinking alcohol like men!!! Now tell me how to explain that smoking, drinking is something that everyone can do regardless of gender. It is a personal choice. Women can also drink/smoke just like men. It doesn't matter who you are. I can imagine what she'll feel if I tell her that I've been dreaming of buying a bottle of wine and drinking one glass every evening. I'm not going to shock her though :) Let her stick to her own stereotypes and beliefs.... Today's song will be Breathe by French electronic band Telepopmusik. I discovered this song last year and it was on repeat at least 10 times a day for a long time. My flatmate even game the whole album, but I didn't like all the songs... So ladies and gentlemen I hope you like it as much as I do...
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