Tomorrow it'll be over....On Friday at 16:38 they send me an email that "my application has been processed". I am not even going to describe what state I was in. Good thing Miika had a day off from work so I called him on skype crying from excitement and also I got disappointed that the message they send wasn't "Your visa is ready" because in Russia and Ukraine that's what they sent in 90% of the cases. The night from Friday to Saturday  I didn't sleep till 7 a.m. I almost watched the sunrise, very "romantic". I couldn't fall asleep because of thoughts in my head. Will I get it and be sooo happy or....how I'll tell good news to Miika, to mum to Miika's family. People tell me you should consider the rejection option too. I don't want to... I'll think about it when it is time...I haven't been so nervous in my life. I just called Miika and he is also very nervous and stressed. When I hear him being so sad I thought I have to show myself strong to him in order to cheer him up. Can you imagine us both being sad ..that'll be crazyy... I'll call him one more time before the modem turn of time.
I asked Fidan to come with me tomorrow. They most likely won't let her in with me to the waiting room, but she can wait downstairs. It'll give me strength to know that there is someone waiting to share my news with. Miika told me to tell them that I need moral support so that they let her in. I'll try of course but I don't think it'll work. I'll pray tonight...but it's already decided so even great powers can't change the decision I guess... I don't even know... Yesterday when I went to the Pantomime Theater which is very close to the embassy and I thought to myself that my passport is there right now, I'm so close to it but at the same time can't reach it.
I don't want too much do I? I want us to be together, to be happy and to have a family...